Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Angry

About an hour ago, i had an argument with someone over the phone..the conversation started nicely but as we moved on, it started heating up and we finally both exploded and my friend ended up hanging up the phone on me. I was so angry i threw my phone against the wall and had to restrain myself not to go where he was and tell him exactly what i think about him. After that i started crying and have been doing so for the last hour. I know its not me with the problem, its him, but he's just one of those people who never want to admit any mistake they make and whenever you try to correct them, you are the evil one. I feel bad about it upto now and i was even going to email them and tell them its the end of what we share but i thought that instead of that let me write on my blog, maybe it will help cool me down. I have a light heart, when i love i love strongly, when i get angry, i can kill someone and when am hurt, it really pains and i can cry and cry for hours. It was a beautiful day today and when i woke up i was in high spirits, i had a free day from work today and there were a few things i had to take care of and i fulfilled each and everything i had planned but i had no idea this day was going to end like this. Am really feeling bad, i have tried to call my friend but he's decided not to talk to me-dont know until when and am going to go to bed a sad person..really sad that its hurting so much. Sometimes i just wish i was a bit more aggressive and i wish small things didnt bother me so much, its at times like this that i just want to run away from everyone and everything and just be on my own.

God knows i try to be the best:best sister,daughter,girlfriend,friend but sometimes it just never seems enough for some people, i still get hurt by the people i love most like what has happened to me today. Does life has to be this unfair, really? I never intended for this day to end up like this, but it has..its just too bad.

4 Comments:

At 7:55 AM , Blogger Milonare said...

Woishe pole...

Stumbled upon your blog on KBW voices...

I used to have the same probi until I realised it wasnt the other people or me that was the problem, it was my expectations of the other people...

With no expectations there can be no disappointments or heart ache...

Be strong!!

 
At 3:36 PM , Blogger ZIWANI said...

you know what i do, i forgive.Trust me it is hard but it works

 
At 1:49 PM , Blogger Elle said...

Pole sana.
Allow yourself time to heal.
Even if you might not believe it now, at some point in the future, this will be a distant memory.
The best is yet to come....

 
At 6:47 AM , Blogger bootylicious said...

Thanks y'all for the kind words, i have long recovered from that and even though things are not completely back to normal, i know i'll soon get over it!I have forgiven, coz thats the only way to move on, now am trying hard to forget, which i must admit is not that easy. But life goes on.

 

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