Sleepless in helsinki!

Its 02.20 in the morning and since i woke up in the morning i haven't gone back to bed. It sounds crazy as only thieves and witches[lol] are supposed to be awake at this time but i just can't get any sleep. It was a big problem in november and december last year when i didn't have a job, part of the reason for sleeplessness, i guess, was because i wasn't doing much so my body was never tired at the end of the day, and part of the reason was the worrying about where to get a job coz there were bills to be paid. Then i got the job and the problem has been gone for three months now but it seems like sleepness is showing its ugly face AGAIN!!I really dont know what could be the reason, yesterday i went to bed at around 2300 but by 1.00 i had not slept even for one minute so i got up and started chatting with a friend upto 4.00 in the morning, crazy!!!Again today, i got into bed at around 0000 but i couldnt get any sleep so here i am.
I dont like it at all coz i know in the morning i will have difficulties getting up and am really wondering what could be the problem with me. Could it be that am stressed up and i dont jua about it ama what the heck is wrong with me??!!!

Help needed

Now my blog is starting to look all boring without pics or cartoons in it.I have tried what they've offered on blogger.com but doesn't seem to be working, ama its me who's slow, don't know. Help anyone????

Amazing!!

Today at work i was bored and idle, so i logged in to some website to look for apartments and then somehow i drifted off and started visiting other websites. Then at some point i needed to know the meaning of a certain word so i googled for an english-finnish dictionary and found like a million dictionaries' websites. It's at that point that i started questioning myself about what i would have done without google ama without internet!It's just amazing how technology has changed our lives in a big big way. Some years ago when i was in primary school, buying or owning a computer sounded like owning an airplane, i had no idea what computers are all about and i didnt even imagine that at some point i would own one and it would be such an important gadget in my life.

The other thing that seems to be just soo important to me is my cell phone, i rarely, if ever leave the house without it, i lock in my keys at times but i can't think of any day i have forgotten my cell phone at home, i keep it in my pocket at all times, even if am not expecting anyone in particular to call me and when its in my bag, i keep checking whether its still on, whether there's network where i am, whether there's any message or missed call. Sometimes i think its an obsession but on the other hand i know am not the only one with the same behaviour. I can't even imagine how the earlier generations survived without the cell phone or the computer!!!

Angry

About an hour ago, i had an argument with someone over the phone..the conversation started nicely but as we moved on, it started heating up and we finally both exploded and my friend ended up hanging up the phone on me. I was so angry i threw my phone against the wall and had to restrain myself not to go where he was and tell him exactly what i think about him. After that i started crying and have been doing so for the last hour. I know its not me with the problem, its him, but he's just one of those people who never want to admit any mistake they make and whenever you try to correct them, you are the evil one. I feel bad about it upto now and i was even going to email them and tell them its the end of what we share but i thought that instead of that let me write on my blog, maybe it will help cool me down. I have a light heart, when i love i love strongly, when i get angry, i can kill someone and when am hurt, it really pains and i can cry and cry for hours. It was a beautiful day today and when i woke up i was in high spirits, i had a free day from work today and there were a few things i had to take care of and i fulfilled each and everything i had planned but i had no idea this day was going to end like this. Am really feeling bad, i have tried to call my friend but he's decided not to talk to me-dont know until when and am going to go to bed a sad person..really sad that its hurting so much. Sometimes i just wish i was a bit more aggressive and i wish small things didnt bother me so much, its at times like this that i just want to run away from everyone and everything and just be on my own.

God knows i try to be the best:best sister,daughter,girlfriend,friend but sometimes it just never seems enough for some people, i still get hurt by the people i love most like what has happened to me today. Does life has to be this unfair, really? I never intended for this day to end up like this, but it has..its just too bad.